Too exhausted from mum life to do anything. I had a minor breakdown due to the baby seat tilting in the car. I cope by avoiding the stress and blogging, when I could be using my scarce tidbits of time to actually tidy home.
I do not care. This is a scrap of me time.
I cannot burn the midnight oil and make glorious art all night, only because by 9pm I have been legit nearly fainting from the day's exhaustion of being there for my baby. I have learnt through daily experience that my type of brain means I cannot switch gears in 2-seconds and therefore, cannot enjoy the 'me' time unless I have a solid 30 minutes when she actually sleeps. I basically won't attempt to pull out the Wacom Movink if I think she isn't fast asleep.
I'm just stressed. It's just stress speaking.
I am all done with university and should be set to graduate next March, but moving into new home and living on my own for first time since my trauma is thrilling, but also freaking me out. Only cuz I keep making goof-ups as a new single mum, but every time I make a fixable and minor mistake, it does triggers me a bit. But I get over it soon enough.
Very rough WIP and planning sketches for my LoopdeLoop animation challenge submission for this month. Don't care if I'm spoiling anything, I am burnt out, just cuz I'm adapting to yet another ginormous life change: managing my own home as a new mum.
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